01
My light!02
I surrender to you03
The ashes of my being04
Burned by my fire05
My loving glow06
Dissolved and purified07
Fossilized stories08
Once again and at last09
Light10
Free of tomorrow
About the form
This draft poem was something I wrote when I was meditating about the earth's offering to the sun and the soul's offering to the earth. I started from 1 to 10 but also end up making 10 to 1, or 1 2-5-8 3-6-9 4-7-10 and 10-7-4 9-6-3 8-5-2 1. I do not have experience in poetry, and I do not know what type of poem this is. In any case, I like mixing and matching the lines because in the simplicity of words they illicit within me different perspectives of what an offering is about depending on where the lines find themselves.3
Reflections
In my reflections about offering I see the surrendering that accompanies it. And what else is best surrendered to the divine creation but my most authentic self--skin, property, reality, and story--which I have co-created with her. In the offering I see the equitable magnitude of the cosmos' gift. Here, entrusted to me freely, as a gesture of gratitude and the acknowledgement of offering. We offered each other not because of adulation but because we understand the light within us that speak of gentleness and oneness of creation. And thus, we say:
Here, take me as a gesture of my surrender to you. Let me be a worthy steward of the cosmos and nourish you, as you me.
The poem is also my attempt to understand the body high I feel whenever I surrender myself to the divine genius of creation. It is as if something from within radiates (or claws itself out) and spreads throughout the pores of my skin. With eyes closed, I see myself levitating and glowing like a small orb of light. Then, I become the earth as she enters her final orbit around the sun. Then I evaporate, burned by the light that radiates within, and starts within again.
Thinking about it, maybe this type of surrendering has been the description of what the religious define as "self-sacrifice." If it is, then I feel like it has been misunderstood over time. Because I do not find any Suffering whenever I surrender. In fact, I find Love; love for all creation as I am Creation, too.
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Other notes
About the title, I want to find a word that can describe self-immolation but without the suffering. Satyagraha is also a fitting candidate. Untitled will do for now. I am open to suggestions!
I have been thinking about how to revise Line 9. When read 10-7-4 9-6-3 8-5-2 1, Line 9 represents, “My Light,” the soul’s importance in guiding a hero’s journey on earth. A souled journey purifies the material experience of creation. But read in another way, Line 9 depicts “I am Light,” the oneness that transforms.
I would like to know if this style has a name so that I can look for more examples online. Your comments including your favorite poets smashing this style is much appreciated.